I have not been putting very many words out in the world lately. There are so many words out there already, I just didn’t want to add any. I don’t want to say things because I think I’m supposed to. I don’t ever want to speak out of fear of judgment or say words looking for anyone’s approval. Sometimes I feel like I should be just listening and learning. In fact, I think I will label 2020 – the year I found out I was wrong about many things.
God has definitely enrolled me in school this year. My first class – Pandemic, including the loss of life section, has been teaching me about what is important and increasing my awareness of how I spend all my minutes.
The recent Injustice and Racism Class has really forced me to look at my thoughts and beliefs, some that I didn’t even know that I had. My social conditioning over many years as a privileged white woman has programmed my brain in ways that I will have to continue to recognize and re-program.
Another class I am taking is the class of Self-Compassion and Self-Love. If I beat myself up for prior ignorance or lack of action, I’m just adding to the problem. I know that feelings of guilt or shame don’t generally create positive actions.
“When you know better, do better” – Maya Angelou
My school summary so far this year: Love myself and all of the other people on the planet as best I can.
“My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you” – Jesus (John 15:12)
HOW DOES THIS APPLY TO WEIGHT LOSS?
To successfully lose weight we have to constantly examine our thoughts about ourselves and about weight loss. Weight loss is a learning process just like any other growth or change opportunity. Maybe we are just always enrolled in a class of some kind throughout our entire life.
